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New Career, Who dis?

10/1/2019

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I was a Librarian

     When people ask me what I do for a living, the three impossibly simple words "I'm a librarian." are always at the tip of my tongue & yet, that's no longer the whole truth. I'll always be a librarian, yes, & I worked hard for the ability to be & say that I am, yet, I'm currently pursuing different goals. Many different goals. My answer these days is usually a stutter of "uh...well...I..." followed by some combination of Writer or Artist or Actor or Comedian (all partially correct). If I'm feeling particularly drained the answer is simply, "I was a librarian." If I'm feeling particularly confident, I might say "I'm an entrepreneur working hard to fulfill my dreams".     
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      My routine as a librarian was impossibly busy & entailed being at one of the branches for most of my waking hours. Now, my time is my own, & I would be doing myself a disservice if I spent any less hours pursuing my current career than I spent as a librarian. I've never been one to stick to a routine. Without the structure of school as a child, I never ate, went to sleep, or woke up at the same time from one day to the next. I'm trying this whole "routine" thing out now for the first time to increase consistent productivity & balance.
     As a frustrating rule of thumb, my mind seems to reject consistency & balance. It spits them back out like sour fruit when I try to shovel them into my life. This propensity for chaos is what makes my recent career change both terrifying & potentially quite successful because in my new career(s) flexibility is a necessity while job stability is a rare luxury. Writing, one of my first passions, has historically helped me wrap my fingers around sanity & hold it tightly yet gently & so, now I write to gain perspective about my various new professional ventures. I publish to solidify that my decisions to take this leap into unknown realms of employment & unemployment & employment & unemployment may be scary but I should not be ashamed of them & do not need to hide them even if it is my initial instinct to do so.   ​

I am​ a Writer

     I have published articles for the local newspaper in my hometown. I have written books that will never be published as they have been long lost in one of my many many moves. I have taken online workshops & courses, completed Writing 1 & plan to begin Writing 2 at the Second City Training Center next month. You are reading my 10th of 12 blog entries...and yet, I have the most difficulty calling myself a writer. I have always enjoyed writing (creatively, professionally, academically, etc.) & so I'm unsure what accomplishment will make the title finally feel true for me. 
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     I cannot say for certain, yet I believe the title will fit more comfortably after the publication of my current major project "The Octopus Ink" an illustrated autobiographical memoir. The first in a simple trilogy "The Suicide Shark" depicting the journey protagonist, Red March takes to save her own life. I am currently forty thousand words deep & hope to have the first draft of the first book to the editor within the month.  

I am an Artist

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      I have always been happy to own the fact that I am an artist but I have never meant it in any professional capacity in the past. Although I enjoy creating graphics, posting promotional material, etc. I am not one to ask for help or self-promote boldly. Having said that, I have recently decided to start offering my services for a price. I have typically reserved my artwork for gifts, apologies, decorations, to promote The Pish Tosh Podcast or the library I used to work at, or most often, to simply express myself in whatever medium I chose to without any expectations. Yet I have developed the confidence to ask for payment for my artwork because I know the following two statements to be fact: 1: I buy & cherish artwork from actual artists & 2: I believe one should support artists talent & skills & hard work. 

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I am an Actor

     Historically, I have had an obsession with television & film yet secretly, I had maintained a skewed negative view of actors in general for much of my early life (by "actors" I mean to include all genders). The screen has always comforted me, made me laugh, cry, & most importantly think. It basically raised me as I spent many hours at home alone in front of the busy glowing buzzing body of the tube. In spite of my admiration for film & TV, actors seemed like aliens to me. I loved the characters yet the people behind them seemed like fiction. I thought of actors as wealthy, stuck-up, lucky, connected, entitled, lazy, narcissistic, unappreciative unicorns who lived on another planet with money trees & in-ground swimming pools. 
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     When I auditioned for the first time in 2017 & began rehearsing for my first performance, my perception of actors quickly changed. I have never before voiced (or written of) my previous distaste for actors in general as I try not to give sound (noise, really) to negative, unhelpful perceptions. I have since learned that actors who take their craft &/or career seriously are some of the most hardworking, self-aware individuals I've ever known. I immediately felt at home among other actors. Many of us share commonalities (some of which are more attractive than others): Attention-seeking behavior, flexibility, commitment, a retentive memory, an artistic flare, a respect for & desire to better understand the audience, the art form, & the story we are portraying.
     My second audition was also a success & I gained another leading part but my next two auditions produced no roles & I tried not to let myself be devastated. Getting back on the horse & auditioning again paid off & earlier this year, I played a role that solidified my love for acting & the acting community. It was during this, my most recent, play that I decided to quit my job of over 10 years & by the close of the show, I was unemployed & ready-or-not was getting my fresh start. My performance gigs then (plays & stand-up showcases mostly) had been satisfying & rewarding in many ways but for the most part not monetarily beneficial. ​
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     Unfortunately, recognizability (not technically a word yet) is a big part of landing paying roles yet it's a catch-22 for any actor just starting out:
-> Many roles submissions require video reels, head shots, education, &/or recognition in the acting community
-> These things cost money &/or require on-set experience which you would get from landing roles.

     In North Carolina, I had opportunities that I will always cherish: Doing the three plays mentioned above, performing as the lead character in a short film (This was my first lead role on film & my first acting role in which I was paid!),  acting in a small dramatic role in my first full-length feature film Reggie, a millennial depression comedy (This was my first credit on IMDB!),  & acting in a simple tourist commercial that promoted a county I still love.
     Here in Chicago, I am surrounded by opportunities but I'm unsure of which to grab for or exactly how. It feels like being in one of those game show dollar bill tornado wind-tunnel...machine things.  I've been fortunate enough to perform as an extra on some major network TV shows & have found that the unpredictability of acting (call time, amount of time acting & in holding, location, wardrobe, scenes, etc. is typically a complete mystery) is balanced out by the experience I gain from being surrounded by professionals (actors, directors, writers, talented crew, producers, etc.) which is invaluable. It also doesn't hurt that as background talent willing to jump when the casting agent says to, I have made more in this industry hourly than I did as a librarian (with a master's degree in a management position). ​
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Emma Rose on IMDB
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​     Since being in Chicago I have acted as background talent for 2 major television shows (I just finished up my latest gig this morning), I have assisted directors as they experiment with new technology, I was in a few short films, performed stand-up & have submitted various auditions in-person & self-taped. 
     It's an exciting new industry for me & whether I ever "make it big" or not, I love the act of acting & as long as I am given the opportunity to do what I love, I vow to appreciate it & enjoy the climb. ​

I am a Comedian

     I began writing & performing Stand-Up Comedy about a year ago. I have always enjoyed making myself & others laugh whenever possible because of the many benefits of comedy (the mental & physical health benefits of laughter itself, gaining new perspectives, releasing tension, the distraction from daily stresses & lifetime struggles, opening minds, sharing stories, etc.). 
     I have used comic relief to carry me through the hardest struggles I've dealt with so far & plan to use this weapon to help me fight through any future struggles that are thrown my way as well. 
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     I so enjoy performing stand-up but I must actively suppress (or at least channel) the crippling anxiety that comes with standing in front of a room full of strangers & basically performing a monologue in the hopes that someone will find a piece they can relate to & will retaliate with a titter, a laugh, applause, or maybe even a tip. The thrill of performing stand-up is unlike anything I've experienced in that it is uniquely a solitary experience - If you fail, it's on you yet if you succeed, you get the credit. Having said that, aside from the thrills, one of my favorite advantages of performing & absorbing stand-up comedy has been the friendships I've made along the way. 
     A couple of days before the big move from NC to IL, I volunteered to help out at the NC Comedy Festival & if you're a penny-pincher like me, volunteering at comedy festivals, at theaters, etc. is a great way to access some amazing performances, help out, meet some of the funniest people around, & not go broke while you're at it. ​

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     I moved to Chicago specifically to take classes at the Second City Training Center. The move has turned out to be the best decision I've made so far. I took Improv level A with Ed Garza & because of this course, I met my funny, handsome, talented partner, Corey. I took Writing 1 with Bina Martin & because of this course, I was inspired to start the Pish Tosh Podcast. I then applied for & gained access to the Second City's Improv for Actors program. I am currently finishing up my second course which makes me eligible to apply for the Conservatory Program which is the advanced program & the cornerstone of the Second City Training Center. 
     I know many who have had to audition several times before gaining access (many auditioners will never be accepted unfortunately). I have auditioned for the Coached Ensemble & The Conservatory Program in just the past couple of weeks & although, I may not have been approved for either (jury is still out), I have learned so much from going through the process that I can apply for my next auditions. ​
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Speaking of auditions, I have two more this evening! So I better get to them & wish me luck!

Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read (& listen to the Weekly Pish Tosh Podcast!) 
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As always, any feedback is welcome & encouraged!

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4 Comments
Peg Ross
10/3/2019 04:22:56 am

Beautiful, brave, kind and brilliant! Such a great person to be around and know.

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Jabberwocky
10/4/2019 11:42:28 pm

Dear Emma,
I have just finished reading you articles highlighting your skills, talents, achievements goals and dreams. Thank you for sharing yourself. I greatly admire your ambitious spirit, but I also sense your kind heart. It comes through quite clearly in your podcasts. I was wondering, as an Elderly American, should a person add on to his bucket list? Set new goals and challenges? Try out new things, even if you’re not the typical one? Or should he hang on the rail and try to just coast to the finish line, knowing that the lions of life prey upon the helpless, the weak, the old. I’d like to lean towards the first option but it’s an internal struggle. What do you think?

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Emma
10/10/2019 07:23:33 am

Thank you so much for listening & for your kind feedback! I feel like your first instinct of trying new things regardless of age is pure & should be embraced! Before I say much more, I apologize for the delay in my response. I have been thinking about this question all week long & pondering how best to address. I do not have the knowledge & years that someone your age has so I am, of course, not speaking with any valuable/specific experience yet I have been imagining myself at retirement age & I have decided that I very much hope that I will still be adding to my bucket list at that point.
I believe a spirit in motion stays in motion. By that I mean that I hope to keep adding to my bucket list & creating new goals until I am no longer breathing. Items could be bold & exciting such as hiking part of a major trail, visiting a new country, or trying out an extreme sport. These items take determination & grit (& yes, perhaps a bit of time too. None of us know the exact amount of moments we have left & I don’t believe any should be wasted wondering about it beyond what is necessary for our health). The items on these wonderfully maleable lists can & should also be short-term items that are highly attainable such as planting a tree, painting a self-portrait, playing a new game, reconnecting with a friend from the past, etc. Items that are realistically accomplishable will give you that jolt of satisfaction that can give you the joy & encouragement that inspires you to reach for some of the larger goals!
I would like to reach my goals AND die trying 😂 because I will preferably never stop creating more dreams & goals which gives me purpose.
In my experience Purpose can only be given to oneself. All the things an individual values the most are unique to them. Everyone is different in this way & so must create their own purpose specific to their personality, beliefs, principles, etc.
I hope this is helpful & that your golden years are just that, golden! Good luck reaching any & all of your goals & please feel free to reach out again! Hopefully next time I’ll be a little quicker in my response!
Thank you again for reading,
Emma Rose

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Jabberwocky
11/4/2019 07:09:47 pm

Dear Emma,
Thank you for your most considerate response. I think it was lovely and so very well reasoned. I must apologize that I have delayed so long in answering you back. I completely agree with your assessment of how a good life should be lived. Live the damn thing!! Don’t let opportunities slide by the wayside because you you might stumble or fall. One has to get up and try again and remain focused on his goals. I particularly like what you said about short term items on your list. There are so many things a person can do that expands his experience, deepens his understanding and satisfies his psyche. Volunteer to feed the homeless or tutor inner city youth or read to older folks in rest homes or just give a flower to a stranger. Random acts of kindness can create a tsunami of good will I think. Perhaps one of the nicest things a person can do is to hand write a real letter to a friend or a family member. In our electronic world a genuine letter is rare thing anymore, but I believe it can deliver that “jolt of satisfaction” you noted- for both the writer and the recipient.
Once again, thank you for taking time to respond to my original note. It means a great deal to me, and it shows what a genuinely kind person you are. I wish you well in all of your endeavors, great and small and in between.
Regards,
J




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